I have been trying to put myself "out there", so to speak, in terms of trying to meet guys who might like to go out on a date with me. Admittedly, I was behind the eight ball from the start because my kind of "out there" consists of making a profile on a dating site and browsing through Craigslist ads. I go to work, I come home--that's what I do. I'm not a bar fly and don't believe I can meet someone special when they're wearing beer goggles. I don't belong to any groups, nor do I particularly want to right now. Like I said, my chances were slim from the start because of my habits.
My point is this: I'm evidently not ready for my special someone to be in my life. I have to deal with some self-esteem issues before I can open my heart to an intimate relationship. That being said, I deleted my dating profile and am going to focus more on me. I'll still keep loving thoughts in my heart and on my mind, but I'm not going to pursue it as I have been. He will find me in good time--when I least expect it!
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I fall into that category of "he will find you when you least expect it". He really came at a time when I wasn't looking. I was fully enjoying my life on my own. Then *BAM* in walks Glen. (And I'm no bar fly but we did meet at a vodka bar!) You're right though hon, you have to be happy with yourself to give yourself fully to someone else the way you want to. It breaks my heart that you have self-esteem issues because I see such a wonderful, beautiful person. Don't be so hard on yourself. Pursue your passions and enjoy your life, right now, right where you are. And know that you are loved!
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