I'm having a tough time. I know I am stuck in the mother of all ruts, but I can't get motivated to do anything about it. Each tick of the clock is a missed opportunity that I could care less if I've taken advantage of. I really have to talk to someone--a professional, unbiased someone.
I've been this way, off and on, for a very long time. Most people see me as happy-go-lucky, because that's how I portray myself. I'd say about 65% of the time, it is how I feel. The other 35% - the 'me' that few people see - is sad, lonely and wallowing in muck so deep it would be very easy to drown. I don't want to drown. I keep fighting because I know there is something worth fighting for out there. I know the last sentence should have read, "...I know I am worth fighting for."
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