A little bit of back story first: I have been talking to a guy I 'met' via the Internet for almost a year now. In the beginning, we e-mailed back and forth all the time and peppered in a few phone calls along the way. He disappeared for the five weeks before Christmas and I had no idea what happened (he states he's in the military and was summoned away and trying to avoid being deployed again). The eternal optimist that I am, I believe him. I can't prove it either way, so I give him the benefit of the doubt. Communications commence and all is well. Recently, he disappears for another three weeks, this time in an effort to solicit politicians in other states for their blessing to expand the family casino business.
I last heard from him eight days ago. I have really tried to be nonchalant about the whole thing, at least in public. Inside, it can tear me to pieces and leave me emotionally battered if I let it. I fell hard and fast for this man in the first couple of months and it literally broke my heart when I didn't hear from him for that five weeks. I promised myself that I wouldn't let that happen again, but I still have feelings for him, however misguided they may be.
My last communication to him was four days ago. I am determined not to be so needy and let him initiate the next round of talks. If he's really interested and missing me, he will wonder what's up and ask. I will make my feelings known and see where it goes from there.
The question is: What would you do?
2 comments:
At this point I think it's wise to prepare yourself for informing him of your feelings. I don't know about you, but I can only handle this kind of emotional roller coaster for so long before I just have to know!! If the results of that conversation end up hurting you, then maybe it was better to know sooner rather than later. However, if the results are positive, how wonderful that it's out and you two can then begin to take the next steps forward together.
Good luck. You're a smart woman with a big heart and any man would be absolutely winning the jackpot to have you in his life.
p.s. I saw Eat, Pray, Love and I cried through half of it. Bali anyone?
Thank you so much! I know I need to say what's in my heart, even if it means that it is no more; not knowing is doing way more damage. On a positive note, it would help me narrow down my next destination. :\
I *LOVED* that movie and so wish I could follow in Liz's footsteps! My first tears were shed in India when Richard was recalling the night before his life changed forever.
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