Meeting someone that you might want to go on a date with is nearly impossible in a city where everyone is on the go and no one takes the time to stop and smell the roses. I was over the bar/party scene soon after I turned 21. I don't believe such settings are a good place to look for someone to date, anyway.
Most guys here are the "J Crew" type, always off to climb a 14, mountain biking, or snowboarding in the mountains. Don't get me wrong, it's great that they find enjoyment in such activities, but I'm just not that athletic. I'd like to be again, and am on a path to doing so, but I'm not there yet. Needless to say, I don't get a second look, sometimes not even a first, from the cuties out here.
I paid for a month on e-Harmony and nothing panned out. I was pretty specific about what I was looking for and very honest about who I am and what I look like. I still got matches that were outside the parameters I set up. What's the point of filling out a profile that takes for-FUCKIN'-ever to fill out if they don't even consider your answers. After I closed communications with countless "matches", they started shoveling "flexible matches" at me. There's $60 I won't get back. I could have used that money to buy Little Debbie snacks to drown my sorrows in! It would have been a more enjoyable experience!!!
So, I filled out a profile on Chemistry.com. I got an email saying, "You have someone interested in you." I log in only to find that I have to pay $50 to find out that Matt is probably not someone I'm compatible with. These dating sites have us singles by the balls and they don't even care that we might want to have kids one day as they're squeezing the life right out of our poor cajones!!! Plus the fact that I will not shovel at least $50 per month looking for a guy that may or may not be the right guy for me. Just forget it...
I'll just do my thing and pray that God and the angels will finally bless me with a man that I deem worthy of sharing my life with. I've settled too many times in my life out of fear of being alone and I won't do it again. He'll have to be everything I want. I don't ask for too much. I want him to be tobacco-free, a non-alcoholic, respectful, honest, romantic, responsible, hygienic, funny, successful and sweet. I make these demands because I've dated men who don't have the above qualities and it just plain SUCKS!!! I won't settle anymore, even if it means I will be the cat lady at the end of the street in the scary house.
Well, there's my Friday night rant. Take it, leave it, whatever. Enjoy your weekend!!!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Meh...
I'm sitting at home on my final day of four off, and I'm thinking about: 1) what I'm doing with my life, 2) what happened to my love life, and 3) how I can spend the most time with my friends while I'm home the first week of September without leaving anyone out.
1) I'm so bored with my life right now I could literally SCREAM!!! I know what you're going to say; fix it. Well, that's another problem - I don't know how! I have a job, not a career. I'm interested in so many things, that I find it impossible to nail down just one to pursue because I'm afraid I'll get bored, which I do very easily, and I'll have wasted so much time for nothing. Sharon said my path in life is a teacher. And while teaching is a very noble profession, I hadn't entertained that idea at all because it didn't seem like something I'd like to do. Then, I started thinking about it and realized how fulfilling it could be to enrich the lives of children. I'm fast approaching 37, and the thought of going back to college to earn a teaching degree is a bit daunting. UGH!!!
2) My love life has been non-existant for over a year now. I dumped Dumbass in May 2008 and have been single since. I don't need to be in a relationship. I can count on one hand how many real relationships I've been in. I'm pretty independent and an overall happy person. With that being said, I WANT to be in a relationship! I miss having someone care about me. I miss caring about someone. I miss making dates, and being excited each moment up until the big day. I miss feeling my stomach do flips at the sound of his voice, the touch of his hand, the kiss of his lips. I miss being called silly pet names, like "honey", "baby", "sweetie". I MISS THE SEX!!! I miss being surprised by a single flower, a romantic card, or a little trinket that reminds him of me, on any given day. I miss getting that goofy grin on my face when I think of him. I miss laying in bed all night, talking about anything that comes to mind until the wee hours of the morning. I just miss having a "him"...
3) I'm so looking forward to coming home in September because I really miss my family and friends! I don't get to see them often enough because it's too expensive and just a flat-out pain-in-the-ass to travel back and forth to PA a lot. This trip, we're only going to be in Tidioute for 3-1/2 days and then it's off to Ephrata for 2-1/2 before coming home. I do hope everything works out so I can see everyone I want to. I'm going to venture a guess that my family is going to do a cook-out on Saturday, which will be great! I have so little time to smash the last 3 years into since our last visit. I'd love to have a friend gathering with a large campfire, ice cold beers, classic rock blasting, and lots of laughs. That's my idea of fun in my Hicktown! Maybe we can integrate the two into a huge party... Then, it's off on a 6 hour road trip to Ephrata to see our other buddies in Pennsyltucky.
On another note, Country Jam in Grand Junction was a good time. We arrived at the cow pasture around 1 PM, and wandered around until Phil Vassar started playing at 5. I'll know next time not to arrive until who I want to see is about to perform because it's too much sun and heat to have to endure just waiting. Phil, Jason Aldean and Big & Rich were great, though, and I wouldn't have traded it for anything. I shook hands with Two Foot Fred; he's a nice guy. Next year, Miranda Lambert, Alan Jackson, Trace Adkins and Keith Urban will be the headliners. I have tickets to see Trace Adkins and Keith Urban this year, so I don't know if I'll go next year.
We spent Saturday in Vail, which was nice, but expensive! It was really hot and there wasn't too much to do other than shopping. We went to Garfinkel's for dinner because it was the least expensive of the real restaurants in the area. Hamilton got a chicken quesadilla for an appetizer, Chicken Broccoli fetuccine as his entree and two margaritas. I got Blackened Mahi-Mahi, grilled vegetables (zucchini, summer squash, asparagus, roasted red peppers, carrots), fries, and two Long Island iced teas. I barely touched my fries because it was just too much and I was really into the veggies and Mahi. We had a nice, laid-back dinner, a couple of drinks, then asked for the check. Our bill was $83!!! Good Gravy! We should have just eaten at the BBQ festival.
I guess that's all for now. Later days!
1) I'm so bored with my life right now I could literally SCREAM!!! I know what you're going to say; fix it. Well, that's another problem - I don't know how! I have a job, not a career. I'm interested in so many things, that I find it impossible to nail down just one to pursue because I'm afraid I'll get bored, which I do very easily, and I'll have wasted so much time for nothing. Sharon said my path in life is a teacher. And while teaching is a very noble profession, I hadn't entertained that idea at all because it didn't seem like something I'd like to do. Then, I started thinking about it and realized how fulfilling it could be to enrich the lives of children. I'm fast approaching 37, and the thought of going back to college to earn a teaching degree is a bit daunting. UGH!!!
2) My love life has been non-existant for over a year now. I dumped Dumbass in May 2008 and have been single since. I don't need to be in a relationship. I can count on one hand how many real relationships I've been in. I'm pretty independent and an overall happy person. With that being said, I WANT to be in a relationship! I miss having someone care about me. I miss caring about someone. I miss making dates, and being excited each moment up until the big day. I miss feeling my stomach do flips at the sound of his voice, the touch of his hand, the kiss of his lips. I miss being called silly pet names, like "honey", "baby", "sweetie". I MISS THE SEX!!! I miss being surprised by a single flower, a romantic card, or a little trinket that reminds him of me, on any given day. I miss getting that goofy grin on my face when I think of him. I miss laying in bed all night, talking about anything that comes to mind until the wee hours of the morning. I just miss having a "him"...
3) I'm so looking forward to coming home in September because I really miss my family and friends! I don't get to see them often enough because it's too expensive and just a flat-out pain-in-the-ass to travel back and forth to PA a lot. This trip, we're only going to be in Tidioute for 3-1/2 days and then it's off to Ephrata for 2-1/2 before coming home. I do hope everything works out so I can see everyone I want to. I'm going to venture a guess that my family is going to do a cook-out on Saturday, which will be great! I have so little time to smash the last 3 years into since our last visit. I'd love to have a friend gathering with a large campfire, ice cold beers, classic rock blasting, and lots of laughs. That's my idea of fun in my Hicktown! Maybe we can integrate the two into a huge party... Then, it's off on a 6 hour road trip to Ephrata to see our other buddies in Pennsyltucky.
On another note, Country Jam in Grand Junction was a good time. We arrived at the cow pasture around 1 PM, and wandered around until Phil Vassar started playing at 5. I'll know next time not to arrive until who I want to see is about to perform because it's too much sun and heat to have to endure just waiting. Phil, Jason Aldean and Big & Rich were great, though, and I wouldn't have traded it for anything. I shook hands with Two Foot Fred; he's a nice guy. Next year, Miranda Lambert, Alan Jackson, Trace Adkins and Keith Urban will be the headliners. I have tickets to see Trace Adkins and Keith Urban this year, so I don't know if I'll go next year.
We spent Saturday in Vail, which was nice, but expensive! It was really hot and there wasn't too much to do other than shopping. We went to Garfinkel's for dinner because it was the least expensive of the real restaurants in the area. Hamilton got a chicken quesadilla for an appetizer, Chicken Broccoli fetuccine as his entree and two margaritas. I got Blackened Mahi-Mahi, grilled vegetables (zucchini, summer squash, asparagus, roasted red peppers, carrots), fries, and two Long Island iced teas. I barely touched my fries because it was just too much and I was really into the veggies and Mahi. We had a nice, laid-back dinner, a couple of drinks, then asked for the check. Our bill was $83!!! Good Gravy! We should have just eaten at the BBQ festival.
I guess that's all for now. Later days!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
A month (or more) later...
Here I am, forgetting I have a blog! Oh well. I'm trying to think if much has happened since my last post...no. I don't think so. But here's what's upcoming for me.
Friday, Cindy is picking me up and she's going to show me around her and Frank's new house. Then we're going to see psychic Sharon, having lunch and watching The Proposal with Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds. It's going to be a great day!!!
Next weekend, my brother and I are going to Grand Junction on Friday to Country Jam. We're going to see Phil Vassar, Jason Aldean and Big & Rich. Then Saturday morning, we're driving to Vail to spend the day. Maybe we'll see someone famous. I'll let you know.
July 15th is Keith Urban and Sugarland at the Pepsi Center. August 21st is Toby Keith and Trace Adkins at Fiddler's Green. August 22nd, Hamilton is taking me to a Rockies game as a birthday present (the 19th is my birthday).
The first week of September is bringing us back home to Tidioute for a few days; Ephrata for the remainder of the week. We'll be back in Denver around the 9th and should be settled in for the rest of the year. This year, I've shelled out a lot of money for entertainment purposes. Don't get me wrong; I love, LOVE live events. After we return from PA, it's time to draw the purse strings in and start saving for a rainy day...or some new clothes! A girl's gotta shop!!!
I'm really digging Facebook more and more each day. Although some of the applications are silly, some are quite insightful, and some are just plain fun. I don't discriminate; I choose whatever strikes my fancy at the time. It's also been a wonderful way to reconnect with people from my past that are now spread all over the country. I have MySpace, too, but I find FB more user-friendly.
I think that catches us up for now. I'm back on nights, which I love, but have some day shifts coming up next month. I really shouldn't complain; I work 3 days a week. The shifts are pretty long (12 hours), but the money is decent and (most of) the people I work with are great.
OK then. I'm outta here for now. I hope to remember to post more often. You'd think having it saved as a favorite that I see everyday when I log on would help me remember! Later!!!
Friday, Cindy is picking me up and she's going to show me around her and Frank's new house. Then we're going to see psychic Sharon, having lunch and watching The Proposal with Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds. It's going to be a great day!!!
Next weekend, my brother and I are going to Grand Junction on Friday to Country Jam. We're going to see Phil Vassar, Jason Aldean and Big & Rich. Then Saturday morning, we're driving to Vail to spend the day. Maybe we'll see someone famous. I'll let you know.
July 15th is Keith Urban and Sugarland at the Pepsi Center. August 21st is Toby Keith and Trace Adkins at Fiddler's Green. August 22nd, Hamilton is taking me to a Rockies game as a birthday present (the 19th is my birthday).
The first week of September is bringing us back home to Tidioute for a few days; Ephrata for the remainder of the week. We'll be back in Denver around the 9th and should be settled in for the rest of the year. This year, I've shelled out a lot of money for entertainment purposes. Don't get me wrong; I love, LOVE live events. After we return from PA, it's time to draw the purse strings in and start saving for a rainy day...or some new clothes! A girl's gotta shop!!!
I'm really digging Facebook more and more each day. Although some of the applications are silly, some are quite insightful, and some are just plain fun. I don't discriminate; I choose whatever strikes my fancy at the time. It's also been a wonderful way to reconnect with people from my past that are now spread all over the country. I have MySpace, too, but I find FB more user-friendly.
I think that catches us up for now. I'm back on nights, which I love, but have some day shifts coming up next month. I really shouldn't complain; I work 3 days a week. The shifts are pretty long (12 hours), but the money is decent and (most of) the people I work with are great.
OK then. I'm outta here for now. I hope to remember to post more often. You'd think having it saved as a favorite that I see everyday when I log on would help me remember! Later!!!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Sorry it's been so long...
I've just been kinda busy and things are a bit out of the norm at my place nowadays. I'll try to catch you up as best I can remember!
It's been more than a month since I last posted. I hate to say it, but not too much has happened in that time. I've just been working and chillin', alone and with friends. My friend Cindy and I went to see Sharon (the psychic) on April 24th. I had a phenomenal reading and am soo looking forward to June! This is when she said I'll meet my soulmate. I have to be honest; it'd be nice to have a man in my life again. I haven't been very lucky in love and I'm tired of being single. I do intend; however, to take my time and just enjoy it rather than analyze it to death and expect the worst. I know I'm taking a risk of getting my heart broken once again, but if you don't take the chance, you miss out on all the good stuff, too!
That night, I went to the Grizzly Rose Saloon to see Lady Antebellum with Rachel and her hubby, Jason. First of all, I caught the bus, which was extremely early, only to find out that due to construction, I wouldn't be dropped off near the venue as I was supposed to be. As soon as I figured out that the driver wasn't going to get really close, I asked to be let off the bus. Did I mention that the Grizzly Rose is in the ghetto?!?!?! I walked for about 10 blocks to get there in not very comfortable shoes. When I finally got there, I was 7th in line at the door, which was awesome. A little while later, I heard there was another line on the other side of the building that had hundreds of people in it. No worries...I got front row when they let us in. All of this happened before 6 PM. I didn't know there would be an opening act, so I assumed Lady A was starting at 8. You know what happens when you assume! The opening act, of which I have no idea what their name is, started playing a little after 8 and played for almost two hours. And they weren't that good!!! Finally, after approximately 4 hours of standing and waiting, surrounded by drunk asshats and being shoved every which way, Lady A takes the stage. The music was awesome, but they didn't even sing all of their songs. Granted, they only have one album out, but they could have sung more of their songs and less covers. About an hour later, it was over. They were good, but I won't be going back to the Grizzly Rose any time soon!
Hamilton and I are going to go to Grand Junction in June to the Country Jam. I'd love to be there on Friday so I can see Jason Aldean and Big & Rich. We'd also like to hike to Hanging Lake and just spend some quiet time in nature. We both need a little quiet time away from the city. In September, we're planning a trip back to PA; a few days in Tidioute, a few in Ephrata. We're still ironing out the details of both trips, but I have faith that everything will work out on all fronts.
Today, Cindy and I are going to go to dinner and see "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past". Later, Hamilton and I are going downtown to see "Obsessed" and have a few drinks. I'm very much looking forward to being out and not in this apartment!
Other than that, not much else is going on...yet! Later days!!!
It's been more than a month since I last posted. I hate to say it, but not too much has happened in that time. I've just been working and chillin', alone and with friends. My friend Cindy and I went to see Sharon (the psychic) on April 24th. I had a phenomenal reading and am soo looking forward to June! This is when she said I'll meet my soulmate. I have to be honest; it'd be nice to have a man in my life again. I haven't been very lucky in love and I'm tired of being single. I do intend; however, to take my time and just enjoy it rather than analyze it to death and expect the worst. I know I'm taking a risk of getting my heart broken once again, but if you don't take the chance, you miss out on all the good stuff, too!
That night, I went to the Grizzly Rose Saloon to see Lady Antebellum with Rachel and her hubby, Jason. First of all, I caught the bus, which was extremely early, only to find out that due to construction, I wouldn't be dropped off near the venue as I was supposed to be. As soon as I figured out that the driver wasn't going to get really close, I asked to be let off the bus. Did I mention that the Grizzly Rose is in the ghetto?!?!?! I walked for about 10 blocks to get there in not very comfortable shoes. When I finally got there, I was 7th in line at the door, which was awesome. A little while later, I heard there was another line on the other side of the building that had hundreds of people in it. No worries...I got front row when they let us in. All of this happened before 6 PM. I didn't know there would be an opening act, so I assumed Lady A was starting at 8. You know what happens when you assume! The opening act, of which I have no idea what their name is, started playing a little after 8 and played for almost two hours. And they weren't that good!!! Finally, after approximately 4 hours of standing and waiting, surrounded by drunk asshats and being shoved every which way, Lady A takes the stage. The music was awesome, but they didn't even sing all of their songs. Granted, they only have one album out, but they could have sung more of their songs and less covers. About an hour later, it was over. They were good, but I won't be going back to the Grizzly Rose any time soon!
Hamilton and I are going to go to Grand Junction in June to the Country Jam. I'd love to be there on Friday so I can see Jason Aldean and Big & Rich. We'd also like to hike to Hanging Lake and just spend some quiet time in nature. We both need a little quiet time away from the city. In September, we're planning a trip back to PA; a few days in Tidioute, a few in Ephrata. We're still ironing out the details of both trips, but I have faith that everything will work out on all fronts.
Today, Cindy and I are going to go to dinner and see "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past". Later, Hamilton and I are going downtown to see "Obsessed" and have a few drinks. I'm very much looking forward to being out and not in this apartment!
Other than that, not much else is going on...yet! Later days!!!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
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